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Out of Control

Having given up on getting pregnant, MJ and I turn to trying to fix my own health, which has nosedived precariously in our blind pursuit of parenthood. It is no secret that the best way to avoid the pain of … Continue reading

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Three Years, One Night, Two Smiles

The passage of time is difficult to understand. I feel I am moving slower than the world, as if caught in a bubble, a pocket of suspended physics where a month is only a day and a year not so … Continue reading

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After A Day

I have always thought of myself as a secret romantic. Perhaps not so secret as I mean to be. Perhaps not really secret at all. I was always torn between the great push to be a tough, independent woman and … Continue reading

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Slouching Towards Reality

Tuesday morning I get out of bed despite significant pain still lingering throughout my abdomen and despite swollen eyes, red and itchy from late night bouts of crying into the duvet so I don’t wake MJ. It is a struggle, … Continue reading

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Ask Not For Whom the Sour Grapes Fall… They Fall For You

If it is going to remembered for all time as the period which solidified my future as unable to have children, I would be grateful if my current aunt Flo would shorten up her stay and take off. I resent … Continue reading

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At the End of the Road… Turns Out There’s Just a Lot of Anger and Sadness (sorry Shel Silverstein)

My mind is on fire. I lay in bed, my head on the foreign pillow, my pajamas clinging to my skin which has started to sweat in the stuffy room and I feel anger coarse through every vein. In the … Continue reading

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What Dreams May Come

I have a dream that leaves me restless, woken up in the morning with a shaken sadness, and it follows me through the day like lose hair that sticks to a sweater, or nagging doubts that poke at your memory.  … Continue reading

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